As goes the New Year, so goes the Whole Year...

Grandma used to say that. On New Years day one needs to be careful to have things organized, tranquil, and perfect.

I'm not that superstitious, but maybe.....

I have a day to finish up the year. Good! It can't be done, so I don't have to worry about it!

When I think of the diet, I feel both dread and anticipation. I know the first few days are difficult as your mind and body adjust.

From John Bradshaw’s “Healing the Shame that Binds You” page 225

“One of the best therapeutic successes I ever had was dealing with a woman’s weight problem. The success came as a result of this exercise. She felt she was twenty-five pounds overweight. She was contemptuous of her body and put herself down with comparisons and self-labeling. I worked with her for several months, continually challenging her comparisons and put-downs. I’d ask her, “Will you love and accept yourself for that?”
No matter what she said, I’d challenge her with that statement. Gradually she began to accept herself just as she was. I refused to talk about diets or exercise. I knew that until she accepted herself exactly as she was, she would never change. She couldn’t lose weight by continually shaming herself. How can a problem that is organized and motivated by toxic shame be cured by increasing the toxic shame? Every time my client compared herself or put herself down with a negative label, she started a shame spiral. The shame spiral intensified the toxic internalized shame, which set her up to eat more as a way to mood-alter the pain of the shame. Self-labeling and odious comparisons are the way to stay overweight, not the way to lose weight.
In order to heal the shame that binds you, you have to begin with self-acceptance and self-love. Love creates union. When we make the decision to love ourselves unconditionally, we accept ourselves unconditionally. This total self-acceptance creates “at-one-ment.” We are at one with ourselves. Our full power is available to us because we are not dissipating our power by having to guard our hungry dog in the basement (our split-off parts).”

I know that only by healing the 'whatever' that drives me to eat and numb the feelings that keep coming up, will I ever truly succeed at this.

Self-love and self-acceptance seem simple really. I can love pretty instantly and on cue -- but that is others, not me. working on it....

scripture for today....
Moroni 7:45
And charity suffereth long, and is kind, and envieth not, and is not puffed up, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil, and rejoiceth not in iniquity but rejoiceth in the truth, beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

It would behoove me to practise a little charity on myself....(typing this makes me feel selfish, too concerned about me, puffed up and envying) good fodder for thought...

Have a great New Years Eve....